Blacksheep, the Ingrate

For those who know, mum is the word.

Blacksheep was finally asked to leave the house more than a week ago, but I refrained from writing about it because I pity him. I heard from my family several reasons why he was asked to leave: he's lazy, he's doing nothing productive, and he's sexually harassing one of the househelps.

Yesterday I brought his stuff to our house so he can pick it up. Unfortunately, when he saw me by the door, instead of greeting me his face turned sour. He didn't even thank me for getting out of my way and getting his stuff there.

So much for my pity.

I don't think people with attitude such as his would improve. Ikaw na nga ang tumulong at nagmagandang loob, ikaw pa ang lumabas na masama. Not that I'm waiting for him to say anything. Expected na.

Anyway, I have done my part. Probably his part in the chapters of our lives had come to his bitter end.

More Work

Been here since 6:30 this morning, and I'd probably stay late, too.

Tag board included, as suggested by my very best girl friend, Lis.

Words From the My Ever-Wise Friend, Phanksmaster

[Phanksmaster] tingnan mo muna
[Phanksmaster] after all
[Phanksmaster] youre just starting
[Phanksmaster] shempre there are always doubts at the start
[Phanksmaster] especially wala naman kayong pinanghahawakang malalim
[Phanksmaster] remember always that relationships are built not made
[Phanksmaster] at once
[Phanksmaster] fast love is just an infatuation

Pagdadalamhati Kasabay ng Ulan

Sinong mag-aakala na ang kagandahan ng pagpasok ng taong ito ay mababahiran ng duda at pagdadalamhati? Na ang animo'y walang-bahid dungis na pagkakataon ay marurumihan ng pagkaaligaga at takot? Kapusukan ba ang maghangad ng kaligayahan? Kailan matatapos ang pagtangis kong ito? Mabuti pang ihawalay ang aking sarili mula sa makamundong pakiramdam, bagkus ay isipin na lang kung paano mamuhay ng walang pag-aalinlangan sa sarili sa kabila ng pakikipagdaupang-palad sa madla. Madla na sa tingin ko ngayo'y walang ibang nais kung hindi ang makapanakit at makasaga ng damdamin ng sa iba. Ng sa akin.

Kung ito ang mundo na aking gagalawan, mas mamarapatin kong mabuhay ng tulad sa isang matandang hukluban, monghe o ermitanyo - na ang pag-iisip at ang mundong ginagalawan ay hindi katulad sa mga pangkaraniwang nilalang.

Kung sabagay, sa ngayon pa lang ay iba na ang kalakaran ng aking mundo. Sa tingin ko naman, sa kalaunan, huwag kayong magtataka kung pipiliin kong tuluyang maglaho at mabuhay kung saan talaga ako nababagay - sa kawalan. At sa pagkakataong ito, HINDI NA AKO NATATAKOT.

CinemaOne 01/23/2006 - Bituing Walang Ningning

Last night walang mapanood sa cable so I decided to drop by the movie channels. HBO featured an old Halle Berry film. Star Movies ... ah nevermind Star Movies. And then I came to CinemaOne - they listed yucky shows on the 7 and 11 PM timeslots. But what caught my attention was the one on the 9 PM slot - Bituin Walang Ningning. I had to watch it, I said to myself. So, together with the two househelps, we watched it.

Bituing Walang Ningning was adapted from a Pilipino Komiks series. It is top billed by no less than Cherie Gil (as Lavinia), Christopher De Leon, Joel Torre, and uhm, Sharon Cuneta (as Dorina).

"She was her most avid fan. She gave her flowers, she watched her shows, she followed her everywhere. But who could have thought that the admirer would one day turn out to be the one more admired?

Sharon Cuneta stars as the fan who became a bigger star than her idol (played by Cherie Gil) in this poignant drama about the evils of fame, and the sacrifices one would make for love." from Divisoria.com.

From this film came the famous lines of Cherie Gil: "You'll never make it. You're nothing but a second-rate, trying hard, copy cat!" And then she splashed water at Sharon. (Cherie got splashed with water, too, in the latter part of the movie).

Why do I love this film? Simply because of it's great OST and the simplicity of the plot. (Lyrics below) If there is one lesson to be had from the film and from the song, it's none other than HUMILITY.

Bituing Walang Ningning

I.

Kung minsan ang pangarap

Habambuhay itong hinahanap

Bakit nga ba nakapagtataka

'Pag ito ay nakamtan mo na

Bakit may kulang pa

II.

Mga bituin aking narating

Ngunit langit ko pa rin ang iyong piling

Kapag tayong dalawa'y naging isa

Kahit na ilang laksang bituin

'Di kayang pantayan ating ningning

CHORUS 1

Balutin mo ako ng hiwaga ng iyong pagmamahal

Hayaang matakpan ang kinang na 'di magtatagal

Mabuti pa kaya'y maging bituing walang ningning

Kung kapalit nito'y walang paglaho mong pagtingin

CHORUS 2

Itago mo ako sa lilim ng iyong pagmamahal

Limutin ang mapaglarong kinang ng tagumpay

Sa piling mo ngayon ako'y bituing walang ningning

Nagkukubli sa liwanag ng ating pag-ibig

[Repeat 2nd Stanza]

[Repeat CHORUS 1]

[Repeat REFRAIN 2 except last line]

Nagkukubli sa liwanag at kislap ng ating pag-ibig


And here is my translation:

The search for our dream

sometime takes forever

but when found, somehow we realize

a lingering emptiness

I have reached for the stars,

yet my true heaven is with you

When we join together,

the billions of stars

cannot outshine us.

Bathe me in the mystery of your love

dim the ambitious glimmer that never lasts

it’s better to become a waning star

if it means I’ll bask in your endless affection

Cover me with the shade of your love

forsake the fickleness of fame and triumph

I am a star without light in your presence:

overwhelmed by the brilliance of our love

overwhelmed by the brilliance and radiance of our love

Summer Is Near

I did this using Photoshop 5.5. It's for a summer campaign, if it gets chosen.

He he he. It's not yet final.

Hooray for Manny!

HOORAY FOR MANNY!

Underworld 2 and My Date: Hideous

The movie was just made to tie loose ends. Had they compressed it to one hour, I think it would've made the first part more interesting.

Anyway, so I had someone to watch it with me last weekend. All I can say is, I shouldn't have gone to meet him instead.

I'm not against PDA, but there is always a place and time for everything. While to him it may be a show of his affection, to me it was already akin to harassment. Pati sa sinehan, hindi nagpatawad ampootch. Not only that, I almost hit a metal signboard by the street as we were walking since he was crowding big ol' me. And he wanted for us to find an apartment and live together. I don't think so, mister.

He's really not that good-looking (looks like Paolo Bediones - but I'm not into him), although I admit that now, looks don't matter anymore. He kept staring at me like I'd be gone when he blinks (I wish I did though).

I'm sorry, but I don't think I will be happy with him. I just don't see myself with him for a long time.

Why am I writing this? Well, some things just never change about me.

I really hate it when people invade my personal space, with the few exceptions of my very good friends, especially those who are not invited. (Although sometimes I can't avoid it, like during inside moviehouses or concerts.) I have known my friends for a long time, or even if I've known them recently, I respect them because they respect me. Hindi babuyan.

Parrot blamed for breakup: It squawked on secret lover

Parrot blamed for breakup: It squawked on secret lover
First posted 05:01am (Mla time) Jan 18, 2006
Inquirer, Agence France-Presse

Editor's Note: Published on page A1 of the Jan. 18, 2006 issue of the Philippine Daily Inquirer

LONDON -- A talkative parrot is being blamed for the breakup of a couple's relationship after squawking the name of the woman's secret lover.

Ziggy, an 8-year-old African grey, prompted a confession from 25-year-old call center worker Suzy Collins that she was having a 4-month fling with a former colleague when the pet blurted out: "Gary, I love you," British newspapers reported Tuesday.

The bird had previously said, "Hiya, Gary," when Collins' mobile phone rang and made kissing noises when the name was mentioned on radio or television, but its owner, Chris Taylor, from Leeds, northern England, laughed it off.

But the computer programmer -- who bought the bird as a chick and named it after singer David Bowie's alter ego, Ziggy Stardust -- said the penny dropped when the couple were snuggled up on the sofa before Christmas.

Moment of truth

"We were watching telly [television] when Ziggy blurted out, 'I love you, Gary' in Suzy's voice. I started laughing but when I looked at Suzy, I could tell something was up. Her face was like beet root and she started to cry," the 30-year-old said.

"I felt sick to my stomach. She told me that she'd been seeing someone she'd met at work called Gary and that she wanted to finish with me.

"She said she was going to tell me anyway but she didn't know how and couldn't find the right time. I've no idea who this Gary is. I was devastated. Suzy left that night and I've not seen her since.

Goodbye, Ziggy

"She came back to collect her stuff when I was out. I hope I never see her again."

Collins told newspapers she was not proud of her actions but admitted she never liked Ziggy in the first place.

Taylor -- already divested of a girlfriend -- has now given away Ziggy."I couldn't get him to stop saying that bloody name ... what else could I do?" he said.

Agence France-Presse

Taunted, Mocked, or Ridiculed

Have you ever experienced a day when you knew everything should be all right, but then it screws up and suddenly you're giddy or restless?

That is exactly what I am feeling today.

Because someone made me feel taunted, mocked, or ridiculed. Damn.

I Brought Home A Guy Last Night

And he was my bestfriend. Kayo ha.

Actually he was there by the invitaion of my sister, who's got a lot of work for him.

We are also finalizing their plan of opening up a botique, and those of you reading this, if you guys need a something for formal gatherings like balls, parties, etc., message me and I'll refer you to him.

So right now we're looking for an apartment which is accessible to traffic and clients, preferably two storeys. The upper floor would be our living quarters. If you have information, please send me a message: r3dguy@gmail.com.

Gathering Darkness

I know I wrote that 20006 would be something great, that good things would be happening to me.

So why do I feel unsecured now?

I took a cab this morning, as I usually do everyday, to avoid sweating and the mixed smell of smoke and pollution on my clothes. I stared outside the window of the cab, my mind wandering and giving automatic directions to the driver.

“Anong petsa ng ngayon?” the driver asked as we came near my destination, jolting me out of my stupor. I counted the days in my mind, and then replied, “January 16 ho.”

Sixteen days into 2006, and counting. Three hundred forty-nine days to go.

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Last Friday, my sister asked our nephew to leave her house for good. It turns out that his flirtatious ways had gone overboard, and can be classified as sexual harassment. What’s more is the revelation that he’s doing it on one of my sister’s househelps, who admittedly is pretty. Siguro dala na rin ng libog. He’s had a lot of violations, so I’ve heard, which I’m not in the exact position to enumerate. Anyway, good riddance to him.

Which brings me to think about my current status in my sister’s point of view. Am I the one to go next? Honestly, I like staying in her house for the following reasons: it’s quiet at night, I don’t feel claustrophobic, it’s near my current job, and it’s cool the whole year round.

Anyway, I learned that my sister is quite disappointed in me because, according to my other sister, I didn’t tell her what my nephew’s been doing. Ang sa akin naman, what’s there to tell? I don’t want to talk about things I am not sure of , masabihan pa akong malisyoso.

But if it comes to it, I’m ready to go. I’ve been meaning to leave a long time ago na rin naman. I just don’t want to go back to our house in San Juan, because whenever I’m there, my system goes haywire and I panic.

Just like Ennui, I think I am going to go find a place of my own, though I think it will be not as nice as the one Ennui has.

Two Tests

Your Birthdate: July 29

You have the mind of an artist, even if you haven't developed the talent yet.Expressive and aware, you enjoy finding new ways to share your feelings.You often feel like you don't fit in - especially in traditional environments.You have big dreams. The problem is putting those dreams into action. Your strength: Your vivid imagination Your weakness: Fear of failure Your power color: Coral Your power symbol: Oval Your power month: November

Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a firestorm - full of intensity and drama.Your thoughts may seem scattered to you most of the time...But they often seem strong and passionate to those around you.You are a natural influencer. The thoughts you share are very powerful and persuading.

You Guys Know This?

Can't wait for it to be shown here.

The Ulupong Strikes Again

For some reason, bad blood between me and the Serpent of the Garden of the company will not subside anymore.

Yesterday, as I got out of the President's Office to get the projector, this was her line:

"[r3dguy], next time huwag kang basta papasok sa office ni sir. Ikaw na lang magtago niyan [projector]." or something to that effect.

How stupid can she get. Well, I'm sure that this will bounce back to her. People as LOW as her should be ignored and overlooked.

I think the main reason why she's reacting this way is that I AM PRACTICALITY TAKING OVER ALL OF HER JOB, not to boast anything naman. I am not going to use the word biatch on her because it is by far a cut above her.

What's funny about her is that she's really acting like a child. A spoiled, bratty child used to having her way. But not anymore.

What is the World Going Into?

I just learned that my married friends are going to separate because they guy doesn't love the girl anymore. It gets more complicated than that. Will write back soon.

The Year 2006 For Me

You'd all be surprised that things are looking up, up, up! I feel upbeat, although it doesn't manifest physically (that is, I still have that cold, stoic look on my face), but generally things are better for me.

Relationship

One goal for this year is to have someone beside me. I mean a relationship that transcends physical intimacy (well, a pinch of it won't hurt). A relationship that binds kindred spirits.

Friends

And speaking of binding kindred spirits, I'm grateful on meeting Phanksmaster. Why? Because the first time we YMed, I knew that he's going to be a long time friend. It's hard to look for friends like him, you know. It's hard to find genuine people who's not after sex. Actually, I got to know him through another friend, Gerumatori, and since then, we've been constant YM and text companions. I think it would also be nice to meet friends through blogs, that way, I already have an idea on how they think. So if you happen to read this and you want us to be friends, just post a comment and I will attend to you shortly. (I do check this site 6 times a week).

It's the year of the Fire Dog. For me fire, despite it's destructive side, also gives warmth. And of course dogs are loyalists, even if they chew on almost anything they can lay their paws and sink their teeth on. So I think Fire Dog is generally a good year for me, a good year to find long lasting friendships.

Magic 8-Ball

I'm happy because a friend gave me a Magic 8 Ball for Christmas. Shallow? I know, and I love it.

Happy 1st Anniversary

I forget that it's been a year since I've worked for this company. Unfortunately, though, I want to resign and find a better working environment.

Cheers to me!

My New Year's Resolution(s)

1. No cigarettes. Or if ever, one pack or less for the whole year.

2. Less alcohol intake.

3. No fatty foods. Gulay a must.

4. Save, save, save!

I'm Back

It's nice to back here in the city, but I would give anything to go back to Vigan and Cabugao.