Painting Sales

Early this morning, my boss just handed me over a 2% commission from the sales of his paintings. I don't know what to make of it, since a few days ago I was irritated with him.

Anyway, I accepted it. Money is money, after all. :D

I'm Angry at My Boss

I'm angry at my boss for not giving the newly hired graphics artist the benefit of the doubt.

The previous artist, label B3, resigned because he got tired of drawing and drawing and revising it, and then drawing again for the book of my boss. And generally, he isn't happy anymore with his job, so he quit.

Anyway, so here comes a GA who, in my opinion, surpass B3 in terms of Photoshop usage.

But my boss, obsessed with B3, doesn't see that. And so he wants to re-hire B3 and, in my opinion, get rid of this new GA.

I mean, WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT? In the first place, why did you let the other guy resign and then ask for him back with an offer of 20,000 per project?!?!?! Everyone here at the office was shocked. We were thinking like 15,000 was enough. But I think my boss reasoned that it didn't include the benefits. It made sense.

But what I'm bitchin' about is that kawawa naman yung new GA. I know he's doing his best, but my boss is too close-minded to notice.

May Bakla sa Office

May bakla dito sa office na Patrick ang pangalan. Okay naman siyang kasama - kung hindi kaputahan at kalibugan niya ang laging pinag-uusapan. Ang pagsasalarawan sa kanya ng dati kong kasama dito sa amin ay isang patay-gutom at jologs na sosyal - isang social climber. Kung tutuusin, may katotohanan ang sinabi niyang iyon.

Matagal na rin akong inis sa baklang iyan. Nung June ang nanghiram siya sa akin ng pera, na akala ko ay babayaran niya ng katapusan. Nung sinisingil ko na ay ang sabi "Wala akong pera." Samantalang kasusweldo lang namin noon mga dalawang araw na ang nakalipas.

Marami pa siyang mga kagaguhang pinaggagagawa, kaso pinalagpas ko na lang kasi napa-immature ko naman kung papatulan ko lahat ng mga kagaguhan niya.

Pero kagabi ang pinaka-matindi sa lahat. Ang lima sa Accounting kasi ay may internet connection. At hindi kasama si Patrick doon. Pero nitong mga nagdaang araw, nakita ko na lang minsan na puro mga hubad na kalalakihan ang tinitignan niya sa Friendster. Nagtaka ako kasi wala naman siyang connection. Nalaman ko na lang na kinukuha niya yung sa isang tao at ikinakabit sa kanya. Inintindi ko na lang, sabi ko wala namang sigurong mali kung gagawin niya yun pag lunch at after office hours.

Pero kagabi, nung umalis na yung tunay na may-ari ng connection, ikinabit niya sa kanya yung linya. Ako naman noon ay nagpri-print ng ni-research ko para sa aking boss (na may hiwalay at kasunod na entry dito). Habang hinihintay ko ay lumapit muna ako sandali sa kanila, upang makipag-kwentuhan. At ang bakla ay hindi maka-connect. Alalang-alang sa kawang-gawa, sinubukan kong ayusin. Wala pa rin.

Biglang luminya ang bakla, "Pinutol mo siguro doon (sa server na ako ang may hawak)."

Amakyat ang dugo sa ulo ko. Gusto ko sana siyang murahin sa harap nila, pero ang sinabi ko na lang, "Bahala ka sa buhay mo."

Punyeta niya. Bakit niya pinagpipilitan na ako ang may gawa, samantalang sinabi ko naman na wala ako sa workstation? In the first place, HINDI SIYA AUTHORIZED NA MAGKAROON NG INTERNET CONNECTION. Kung tutuusin ay bawal ang ginagawa nung baklang yun.

Ang nakakainis, bakit ako ang sinisisi niya sa hindi niya pagpaparaos ng libog niya? Bakit hayok na h ayok siya sa lalaki? Kasi nga, isa siyang mangmang na patikimin mo lang ng karangyaan, akala niya ay pag-aari lang niya ang mundo.

Kung alam niya lang na ang mga tulad niyang bakla ay pinagtatawan ng sangkabaklaan.

Insomnia and Then Some

I have a sleeping problem. No matter what time I sleep, I am awake from 3 AM to about 4:30 AM. And whenever I am awake during that time, I try to find someone awake among my friends also.

Thank God I have my bestfriend for that. Here is one of the many conversations that we had. This happened just this morning. I asked him first if he was still awake, and he had a previous reply, but I had to erase the rest from my unit.

Cactus: At least in ur free tym ur doin stuf u lyk. Buti nga may cute guys ka kasama eh. Wla msydo cute sa ofc. Musta work? Stl aplyng sa iba?

Me: I gave that up. Xmas season so wlang magh-hire. Do you remember jp ***** ng **?

C: Yup. Y?

M: Close kme ulet bcoz of magic. We see each other sumtyms. Knda hot. But he myt be gay or inclined to.

C: Really?? Kinda shocked. San galing itong mga kalaro mo? San kayo nag-e-eb?

M: Bkt naman shocked? Sumtyms sm north, galleria, glorietta 2, sm san lazaro pero malayo sa kn so d ako punta dun.

C: Intrstng. Its gud 2 knw dat nt all kids r into onlyn games n ders intrprsnl contact na face to face Ü

M: Nyah. Di ito onlyn. As in magic cards. Antok k n b? Anu gawa ng ghey?

C: Itech nuod ng south park dvd. Ang kulet! Haha

M: Ay hahahaha. Istorbo ba?

C: Of corrs nt. Kaw palagi ka na insomniac.

M: Maaga me nakatulog. Eto gising ulit. Naalala m ung tiga ust na hi**** ko? I turned him down.

C: Yun ba yung pinadala mo na pic dati? Y'd u turn him down? Gus2 nya maging kayo?

M: Nope. He said sumthing offensive. Gs2 ata magpa ** ulit. Pero d daw sha bakla. E hello mas malandi pa ata s bakla sa laot yun.

C: Ay nako u did d ryt thing. Gays in denial r d worst. Sana tinarayan mo.

M: Oo. Tinarayan ko tlga. Bastos eh.

C: Yehey!! Loser yun! U deserve betr. Ü Mon-Sat ka parin ba?

M: Yep mon sat pa rin y? Ok lang wd boys anjan naman si jp, mike, at jon. May isang player ang cute. Mukhang bata pero mukha ring masarap.

C: Hahaha Ang landi mo!

M: D naman. Kaw what keeps u buzy as a gay bee?

C: Work, dvds, grocery evry week, meeting bf. Ok nman pero bored nko sa work.

M: Nagagawa m lahat un?

C: Ndi nmna. Altern8 every pay day fri. Multi-tasking. Hehehe Knd free ka nga dis fri pwde tayo meet cguro pero ang aga mo kc umuwi lagi eh

It got cut because I eventually fell asleep. I think he figured that one out, and besides, he's used to it. I believe he slept around 5 AM.

Actually, more than keeping me company, my bestfriend is my best outlet to keep my PANIC ATTACK UNDER CONTROL. His reply assures me that everything will be okay.

I haven't said it yet, and eventually he may read this, so THANKS BES, I OWE YOU ONE AGAIN. Sana hindi ka magsawa sa kakulitan ko.

My Eldest Sister Got Divorced

Last weekend, the sister I'm staying with told me that our eldest sister living in the US got divorced sometime last April before she came here to the Philippines. The news has yet to be confirmed.

Their side is a really strange family.

After Fieldwork

I just back now from my fieldwork. It was kinda tiring since it involved sales na rin, and lifting heavy frames. What scares me the most is that my boss has indirectly given me the responsibility of safeguarding his valuable paintings.

Speaking of which, I think that it's high time for me to take other responsibilities na rin. No, I'm not going to start a family, silly. I mean, I have to stand up more to my choices and beliefs. The only thing that I don't like is that fucking replacement lamp.

Hay.

Bored With Teeners

Lately I've been trying to avoid legally aged teens and twinks (early twenties). Sure, some of them look really good and horny and yummy and playful.

But in the end, experience matters.

I can't take the whinings, the incessant unreasonably ridiculous demands, and immaturity. Sure, some of them think and act like mature people, but you get the best of them most of the time (just like what I do). All the while underneath is a naive child unable to control their raging emotions and hormones.

Sometimes you want peace and quiet, or a relationship that does not exact much toll on your private time.

North Korea Has Nuclear Weapons

Is my dream of an Asian nuclear war going to happen anytime soon?

No Remorse

Recently, the old hag who often sexually harrass me when I was a kid had died a few months after the vehicle-for-hire they used slammed into a provincial bus along SLEX. I don't feel any pity for her, even if she was the one who stayed with my mom in the hospital.

When she was still alive, she would always, always go to our house and "ask" for something. Actually, it was more of demand. I felt that my parents' "debt of gratitude" was never repaid because she kept on asking and they would give in to her demands which was really annoying. (She also had annoying kids and my sister, who grew up with them, recently had to lambast one of them because she was being asked for something they aren't worthy of. It's rather complicated.)

So when my younger sister told me about the hag's fortunate demise, in my heart I knew that this (my) world was happy to get rid of the likes of her.

No remorse for an end to her sad excuse for a sorry existence.