Tournament Weekend

I actually joined a Magic tourney last yesterday, July 30.

My score was 1-5-0, win-loss-draw. It's my first time. I'm a virgin when it comes to tourneys like that.

The conslations? I got my very own DCI number, there were lotsa cute guys, and of course I exprienced pitting my own cards against others.

Damn you red mages. Ha ha ha.

Youngest tournament player. His name is Gabe, I think.

Bitchin' at 27

It's my birthday. All I can say is that I am grateful to everyone who has helped me go this far. I actually feel healthier and saner compared to last year. I think it's because I've quit smoking. And of course, watched my diet.

And siguro the fact that I decided to close doors of the past helped a lot. It has actually opened windows of opportunity for me. (So cliche.)

Anyway, see you again next year.

Salamat sa iyo! (Alam mo na kung sino ka.)

Care Bear Stare?

I just noticed it yesterday and this morning. For some reason, iwas ang ibang tao sa aking stare. Ano ba ang mayroon at iwas sila?

Hear Me, All Ye Hypocrites

When you befriend me despite of being what I am, dont start and "preach" that being gay is wrong. That's just crap.

God has loved and accepted me for who and what I am, and I don't need anyone to tell me otherwise. Stop bitchin' around, man! My world needs less people like you. Go drag your sorry ass some place else because I am okay the way that it is. I know who my friends are, sadly, you aren't one of those. Ayokong makipag-plastikan sa 'yo, certified Orocan.

If you still can't understand, well read this: FUCK OFF. That goes to all those whose thinking is smaller than a mung bean.

Wounds

It has been said that time heals all wounds. Well, here I am trying to stich close the last remaining opening of the wound that started some eight years ago.

Stitch it close. Make it tight.

It's his little bundle of joy.

I wish him and his family the best of luck. In the end, it is all that matters.

This Is It

Under the supervision of my "recruiter", I revised my resume to fit the company's need. She submitted it just this afternoon.

Wish me luck guys.

I Thought It Was the Other Half

Si Darren Hayes pala yung gay. Yung half naman kasi nung Savage Garden na si Daniel Jones, mukhang Czech porn star kasi.

Google Logo Artist

Ever wondered who does the changes on Google's logo?

Here is the article.

The Crew

Last night I was talking to my niece regarding what's been happening to our lives. She's back here in Manila for summer break, but she's on a summer job at the USE, which pays her about 5.15 ... in DOLLARS AN HOUR. ($ 1 approx Php 53, therefore, $ 5.15 * 8 = $ 41.20 = Php 2,183.60)

At one point she shared me this story:

Her friends from ISM (T and P) went out at night and where in a bar (I think it was Absinth), talking. Within their group was an Assumptionista.

In the middle of their conversation, the Assumptionista out-of-the-blue said, "Do you guys watch LOST (TV show)?"

T replied, "No, but one time we saw the crew in Hawai'i."

The girl then asked, "The crew? What is that? Is that a good show?"

T and P were speechless.

Moral of the story: You have to watch TV more often. Ha ha ha.

Twisted Point of View

I know it's kinda twisted, but I think Lance Cpl. Smith is hot. I see him as just a horny, gorgeous 21 year old guy in a foreign land in need of releasing his urges. It's just sad that everything had to boil down to this. No offense meant to "Nicole", but I agree with what he said that this trial has ruined his life and his career.

Thinking Things Over

A few days ago I posted here that I was looking for something to look forward to.

Well, I think that it has come.

Last Saturday, as I was busy tapping away on the keyboard, a friend of mine YM-ed me. I was kind of surprised because we haven't talked that much over the past few months. I guess we're just both busy.

Anyway, she offered me a job. Actually, she offered to pirate me for their company.

I'm weighing my options now. With the sudden turn of events here at the office, I think it's time for me to consider things.

Again.

Wish me luck.

Topsy-Turvey

Instead of waiting for THE ONE for me, why can't I be THE ONE for someone else?

Nah, bad idea.

I thought of this just this dawn when I wasn't able to fall asleep. I really don't why I suddenly thought of it.

Sweetest Line From a Song

"... 'coz life is pleasure with you by my side ..." from Bonnie Bailey's Ever After

'Di ba, it's sooo sweeeet!

Federer Wins 4th Wimbledon Over Nadal

Here is the article

I think Rafael Nadal is one hot Spanish twink.

Spaceshuttle Discovery's Actual Mission?

Congratulations for the successful launching of Discovery.

I have one question, though. Is the reason for the launch just to fix or repair itself?

Read this article: Discovery

Somehing To Hold On and Look Forward To

You know, at my age I should have to learned to let go of things, events, ideas, and people that I know would not become part of my life forever. It's pointless. Yet, if I do so, then there isn't much left to hold on to, is there? I'll free fall into the pit of uncertainty.

What is out there? I already feel the stagnation working. Maybe I should accept the fact that my life would be better elsewhere. Abroad, perhaps? Somewhere I can start anew and do things right. Because here, all I know are lies and deceit, shallowness, emptiness -- there's really nothing there. I'm like an empty shell.

You see, same old questions. Where do I fucking start?

I envy those people whose lives are already mapped out, those who follow their dreams, and those fate had been kind to.

Actually, these thoughts of mine were aggravated when I met [Ge]. He's young, obviously in love with his girlfriend, and obviously enjoying what he does with his life. It's like he's oblivious to all problems. He's planning on finding a place for them both, and had actually asked for my help. So he's happy living and loving the girl I believe he plans to marry someday. They're a great pair. How about [John]? He's married, he's got kids, and he gets to travel with his family. These guys, I think they don't worry about life.

Don't get me wrong, I don't have plans of getting married. It's just that, I envy them both because at least they have something to hold on to. Something that both gives them strength. It's not love, because I don't think that it's appropriate for me.

Isn't it odd that I feel as if I'm the only one experiencing this?

Everyday I greet the same morning, asking wether there is something more to life than just waking up from a vivid dream of both happiness and sorrow. At least in my dreams I can make things happen. It's not that I want my life to be perfect - that would be a complete bore.

I just need to have something to hold on and look forward to.

When I look at my friends, all I can see is success, or their sure path to it. Of course I am happy for them, who wouldn't be?

I thank those who believe that I have the strength to wether my problems. But do I believe in myself?

Ano ba mayroon sa buhay na ito? Saan ako magsisimula para mahanap ang bagay na mabibigay sa akin ng lakas para sumaya?

I'm ready to meet that happiness.

And when I do, I can sing these lines:

All by myself/I don't need anyone at all/I know I'll survive/I know I'll stay alive//All on my own/I don't need anyone this time/It will be mine/No one can take it from me/You'll see

For those who are unfamiliar with it, it's the chorus of Madonna's "You'll See".

Ang Gusto Kong Gawin Ngayon

Mag-travel, magbakasyon, makipagkwentuhan, lumayo, matulog, humilata, mag-drowing, magbasa, manood ng TV, mag-PS2, mag-Magic, mang-Magic, tumitig, mag-daydream, kumanta, huma.., mag-FFVIII, mag-chat, manood ng blue films, mang-asar, umupo, kumain, maligo, mang-away, magbasa ng dyaryo, makinig ng radyo, mag-sulat sa blogger.com, magsulat ng nobela, tapusin ang Anna Karenina ni Leo Tolstoy, mag-download ng kanta, mag-inat, manood ng sine, mag-mall, magkaroon ng sariling apartment, magkaroon ng raise, uminom, mag-simba, maglakad-lakad, mag-sulat ng diary, tumitig sa kawalan.

Meeting New Guys

People, guys or girls, playing Magic: the Gathering are almost always stereotyped as geeks. Sadly, I am one of those who play these cards, but being branded as a geek is okay for me because I admit that I am, it just doesn't show. But going to play groups proves to be fun, since I meet new guys of the same wavelength, and not necessarily on terms of sexuality.

I'm glad I have new people to talk with regarding Magic cards, anime, and Marvel. Yep, Marvel Universe. Just last night, I met some guys over at Megamall. Who would ever thought that Scarlet Witch had created a virtual universe for everyone, making every mutant's desires come true. It's called the House of M (M for Magneto, the greatest Marvel hero-villian of all time).

And for the first time in recent memory, I played Magic the whole afternoon and went home past 10 PM. Wow. What an achievement for me.

And of course, the guys. This one guy, let's call him Jon. He's hot. Let's just leave it at that. The other one's cute. Silly me.

No offense to my friends, ito talaga ang trip ko, ang maglaro ng Magic at makipag-usap sa mga taong pareho ang interests sa akin. This is my social life.