X's and Y's

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Start of Y buffer: Tue May 08 14:02:38 2007
[12:44] Y: kamusta ka na ate?
[12:44] X: hey ate
[12:44] X: so far, di ko alam eh
[12:45] X: nabasa mo blog ko? :D
[12:45] Y: hindi pa eh
[12:46] Y: daanan ko
[12:46] Y: hehe
[12:46] X: di ko alam talaga Y
[12:46] X: kagabi lang nag sink in
[12:46] Y: bakit?
[12:46] Y: hehe
[12:46] Y: at least nag sink in na
[12:46] X: yeah
[12:47] X: masakit
[12:47] X: pero alam mo na isip ko rin
[12:47] X: na magiging unfair sa kaniya if i change the way i treat him
[12:47] X: i mean, i still have to talk to him, right, although malalaman pa rin niya yung change
[12:48] Y: honga
[12:48] Y: pero thats part of the retreating process
[12:48] X: so ano na Y
[12:48] X: this time
[12:48] X: i'm really, honestly lost
[12:49] Y: treat him as a friend.
[12:49] Y: yun na lang muna
[12:49] X: ndi "yun na lang muna"
[12:49] X: malamang, yun na lang TALAGA
[12:49] Y: oo
[12:49] Y: pero
[12:50] Y: balak mo rin dumistansya diba?
[12:50] X: yup
[12:50] X: madalang na nga punta ko sa glorieta
[12:50] X: siguro ngaun baka once a month na lang
[12:50] Y: wag mo naman paabutin
[12:50] Y: na kahit yung sarili mong hobby eh magsuffer
[12:51] X: kung hobby at hobby lang
[12:51] X: meron namang ibang venue
[12:52] X: nabasa mo na ateh?
[12:54] X: masasamahan mo kaya ako bukas?
[12:54] X: parang gusto ko mag-Baclaran
[12:57] Y: pero mawawala ka sa circle mo
[12:57] Y: i check ko ha
[12:57] Y: bakit ka magbabaclaran?
[12:58] X: i'm going to do ala-Kris
[12:58] X: punta ako dun sa church
[12:58] X: ay kaso siksikan pla bukas
[12:58] Y: nyeh
[12:59] X: wala lang
[13:00] Y: yun nga siksikan
[13:00] Y: don't ever think God is punishing you
[13:00] X: feeling ko lang ateh
[13:00] Y: HINDI
[13:01] X: if not, then what ateh?
[13:01] X: yun lang talaga,
[13:01] X: why am i allowed to get to know someone
[13:01] X: i asked for signs chuvaness
[13:01] Y: then wat
[13:02] X: then ayun
[13:02] X: ala rin
[13:02] Y: nalaman mo na may jowa siya
[13:02] Y: asawa pala
[13:02] Y: maybe you have expected too much
[13:02] Y: too early.
[13:02] X: ndi naman
[13:03] X: sana lang i learned it earlier
[13:03] X: so i could have stopped
[13:03] Y: i think i already told u that/
[13:03] X: na may asawa siya?
[13:03] X: yeah
[13:04] X: mali ako doon
[13:04] X: so in the end pla, its still my fault
[13:04] X: and i accept that
[13:04] Y: lets say
[13:04] Y: iits a learning process dude
[13:05] X: learning process again
[13:05] X: maybe i just don't learn
[13:05] X: hay
[13:05] Y: we learn dude
[13:05] Y: we never stop from that
[13:05] X: it's my mistake again
[13:05] X: and so, ano na gagawin ku?
[13:05] Y: why do you have to
[13:05] Y: think its a mistake
[13:05] Y: its not
[13:06] Y: you have to live by your decisions
[13:06] Y: anong gagawin mo
[13:06] Y: get out of the notion that it was a mistake
[13:06] Y: go on
[13:06] Y: make friends with him
[13:06] Y: he never had sex with you
[13:06] Y: or told you that he loves you right
[13:06] X: magulo pa ngaun
[13:07] Y: then in time
[13:07] Y: don't blame yourself for something
[13:07] Y: that is not a mistake in the first place
[13:08] X: its a mistake Y
[13:08] Y: why?
[13:08] X: no matter how we look at it
[13:08] Y: ano?
[13:09] X: its wrong to like someone like him ng ganon
[13:09] X: naging matigas ang ulo ko
[13:09] Y: you expected too much for something
[13:09] Y: that were not really sure
[13:09] X: sinabihan na ako na stop
[13:09] Y: kung kaya ba o hindi.,
[13:09] X: but i continued
[13:10] X: yeah
[13:10] Y: curious lang ako
[13:10] Y: if he has a wife
[13:10] Y: bakit ganun
[13:10] X: expectations kill me
[13:10] Y: ang lifestyle niya?
[13:10] X: di ko rin alam eh
[13:10] Y: nakausap mo ba ang wife niya
[13:10] X: all i know is he receives sustento from his dad
[13:10] Y: o sinabi lang niya?
[13:11] X: nag-text back kahapon
[13:11] Y: okey...
[13:11] X: send ko sa yo ngaun yung text ha
[13:11] Y: sige
[13:11] X: napadala ko na
[13:11] X: ateh
[13:12] X: i want to stay aloof talaga
[13:12] X: ayoko na
[13:12] Y: so ano gagawin mo?
[13:12] Y: mag mamadre ka?
[13:12] X: nyah
[13:12] X: di ako tatanggapin dun
[13:12] X: siguro stop na
[13:13] X: b's going to be the last
[13:13] Y: haha
[13:13] Y: sabi mo lang yan
[13:13] X: ha? bakit naman
[13:13] Y: haay
[13:13] X: brb ha
[13:13] Y: normal sa atin ang mag retreat pag nasasaktan tayo
[13:13] X: may aayusi lang
[13:14] Y: oki
[13:34] X: m back Y
[13:37] X: so going back Y
[13:37] X: what am i to do?
[14:01] *** "Y" signed off at Tue May 08 14:01:12 2007.
End of Y buffer: Tue May 08 14:02:38 2007