Hard Headed

This happened just a few hours ago, and I had to write it down lest I forget what I feel about the situation the next time I write. I had to let this out.

You see, our department was tasked with the design of the Sales Department's Christmas Party that was held today. Muntik ng mabulilyaso because of the actions of my co-worker with whom I have having a difficult time working with the past few days, in fact, the last few months. Matigas talaga ang kanyang ulo, and she seems oblivious to the repercussions of what she fails to do.

The party was scheduled to start at about 7:30 or 8 PM. At 6 PM, we were still not halfway with the design of the venue. I was panicking because the Manager will surely get mad because of delay. It was a good thing that there were a lot of other Sales and Warehouse people who were there to help us.

We were supposed to leave early, at about 2 PM, to have finished everything on time. When I told her that some people were already getting anxious, she replied that she were waiting for the other Secretary of my boss so that we could take the other secretary to help us with the design. Meanwhiile, the other Senior Sales Manager was getting frustrated because it was past 3 PM and we were still there. Kinakabahan na ako kanina talaga, and I know that the other Sales people were already growing mad with her. I know that papagalitan kami, but there was nothing I could do because she doesn't want to move without the other girl.

To cut the story short, she finally moved when pressed by the Sales Supervisor and we were able to finish the design of the venue just in time. When the Manager came, we were just doing the finishing touches.

I learned during the past few months, and through Vanity Fair, not to play the Blame Game, or the Blame Card. In recent months I stood by my decisions with conviction, even if it went against the norm. But this time, I had to point my finger at her, because if not for her, we would have finished the whole thing with time to spare for preparing with the other details of the party. Although I am grateful for all the people's help, I am not happy with what happened because I am not satisfied with the process of decorating the place. I am not proud of it.

I blame myself for not having done more, 'ika nga, to have been more proactive in dealing with this situation. I could have gone ahead, and could have done a lot more to save time.

I talked with the people there, and explained my side. In a way, I am glad they do not blame me.

This Saturday, our company will be having our Warehouse party. I took under my wings the responsibility of managing the stage design. I promise myself that I will not get mired in problems like that of the fiasco today.

Insomnia and Then Some

I have a sleeping problem. No matter what time I sleep, I am awake from 3 AM to about 4:30 AM. And whenever I am awake during that time, I try to find someone awake among my friends also.

Thank God I have my bestfriend for that. Here is one of the many conversations that we had. This happened just this morning. I asked him first if he was still awake, and he had a previous reply, but I had to erase the rest from my unit.

Cactus: At least in ur free tym ur doin stuf u lyk. Buti nga may cute guys ka kasama eh. Wla msydo cute sa ofc. Musta work? Stl aplyng sa iba?

Me: I gave that up. Xmas season so wlang magh-hire. Do you remember jp ***** ng **?

C: Yup. Y?

M: Close kme ulet bcoz of magic. We see each other sumtyms. Knda hot. But he myt be gay or inclined to.

C: Really?? Kinda shocked. San galing itong mga kalaro mo? San kayo nag-e-eb?

M: Bkt naman shocked? Sumtyms sm north, galleria, glorietta 2, sm san lazaro pero malayo sa kn so d ako punta dun.

C: Intrstng. Its gud 2 knw dat nt all kids r into onlyn games n ders intrprsnl contact na face to face Ü

M: Nyah. Di ito onlyn. As in magic cards. Antok k n b? Anu gawa ng ghey?

C: Itech nuod ng south park dvd. Ang kulet! Haha

M: Ay hahahaha. Istorbo ba?

C: Of corrs nt. Kaw palagi ka na insomniac.

M: Maaga me nakatulog. Eto gising ulit. Naalala m ung tiga ust na hi**** ko? I turned him down.

C: Yun ba yung pinadala mo na pic dati? Y'd u turn him down? Gus2 nya maging kayo?

M: Nope. He said sumthing offensive. Gs2 ata magpa ** ulit. Pero d daw sha bakla. E hello mas malandi pa ata s bakla sa laot yun.

C: Ay nako u did d ryt thing. Gays in denial r d worst. Sana tinarayan mo.

M: Oo. Tinarayan ko tlga. Bastos eh.

C: Yehey!! Loser yun! U deserve betr. Ü Mon-Sat ka parin ba?

M: Yep mon sat pa rin y? Ok lang wd boys anjan naman si jp, mike, at jon. May isang player ang cute. Mukhang bata pero mukha ring masarap.

C: Hahaha Ang landi mo!

M: D naman. Kaw what keeps u buzy as a gay bee?

C: Work, dvds, grocery evry week, meeting bf. Ok nman pero bored nko sa work.

M: Nagagawa m lahat un?

C: Ndi nmna. Altern8 every pay day fri. Multi-tasking. Hehehe Knd free ka nga dis fri pwde tayo meet cguro pero ang aga mo kc umuwi lagi eh

It got cut because I eventually fell asleep. I think he figured that one out, and besides, he's used to it. I believe he slept around 5 AM.

Actually, more than keeping me company, my bestfriend is my best outlet to keep my PANIC ATTACK UNDER CONTROL. His reply assures me that everything will be okay.

I haven't said it yet, and eventually he may read this, so THANKS BES, I OWE YOU ONE AGAIN. Sana hindi ka magsawa sa kakulitan ko.